Saturday, January 5, 2013
Art and Fear
Anxiety is the hand maiden of creativity. ~T.S. Eliot
One thing I want to focus more on this year is painting. I say this every year, but every year I truly mean it. Why is it so difficult for me? I can only guess that it's the fear of making bad art. As a perfectionist, it's a hard concept for me to swallow: that we must make ugly art in order to become better. This is true for anything...but with painting it's been more difficult for me to accept. With poetry I've been fearless..writing and writing for over seven years now without any hesitation or anxiety about what pours out. Even if it's bad, I work on it till I like it - it's very painless. So what's the difference between ink and paint?? Colors? Shapes instead of words? If I don't like it, I can paint over it and start over...I can't quite figure out my psyche on this one. All I know is that I continuously hold back when thinking about painting...even though my desire to do it is constant and incredibly strong. I'm determined to push through this wall of anxiety. Will it work this year? I really, really want it to.
I picked up a paintbrush a couple days ago...it felt good to just sit, draw some floral shapes, and fill them in with watercolors. I was pleased with the results...as always, my fears were grossly exaggerated and my art didn't look bad at all. Isn't it amazing how that usually works? Fear is an ugly beast.
I was motivated by Elsa Mora's lovely site - have you seen it? She's so incredibly talented and has stared a new site this year called Art Is A Way. It's filled with creative encouragement and inspiration (and her beautiful art work). She asked her readers to do something with the word "art" and then post it to her Flickr group or on Instagram with her hashtag #artisaway. I created my floral frame and then took a photo of it with my iphone. I added the word "art" with the Phonto app, and also aged the photo a little bit with the Distressedfx app.
Thanks for stopping by...today I'm wishing, for any of you who are hesitating creatively, to push past that fear and just start!